I realize I am one of the most powerful players on this server. I'm not staff or anything special, but I am super powerful. I use this powerful stance in such a way to easily manipulate people's thoughts by scolding or praising them for what they have done. And most of the time they listen. I don't know what caused me to gain such an intangible quality, but I'm definitely aware of it. But after the nominations, I used it in vengeance and malice, with the simple cause to ruin reputations within staff, and that is actually really disgusting behavior that I strongly discourage. I have taken my "in the moment" anger and charismatically caused other players to beleive that staff had messed up big time, when all in all, the situation really wasn't that deep, and also considering the fact that I don't get genuinely angry. But essentially, this is why I was mad: The last mod nomination, I had put a fake application in just to see how much support I would get just because I'm Napkin. Just as I was expecting, I received more than a respectable amount of likes. I came on to the server and people were like "congrats Napkin, you already won." I don't think that was said in sarcasm, but I would like to have new people get the staff experience I got. I eventually deleted my app simply because I never intended to rejoin staff anyway; a promise I have made with Remmi after our resignations last year, and because I knew if I kept it up there I would have very likely monopolized the entire competition of apps. When Kash and Jeremy kept theirs up, I let it slide. I already knew they were going to win but I let it slide. And then Jeremy quit, and more recently, Kash said he was taking a break, which under my assumption, meant that he did not even care enough, and that he had his fun on staff. And before that, Dusty quit, so what I wanted was people who I thought could not preside over all the applications of less known or underrated players, since last time Jeremy and Kash both ended up in that situation. And then Dusty and Razer reapply and that's when I got heated. I'm know they didn't intentionally commit to it, but that's a combination that can literally obliterate competition by a mile, and since they've already been staff, I just was ready for some new faces. Obviously they got nominated and I lost my mind at this point. I was in disbelief that the staff wasn't taking chances on a whole set of new people, and would much rather pick some people who were player favorites instead. And blah blah blah I lashed out everywhere, people got butthurt in the process, I didn't care about other people's feelings like usual. Anyway, I'm sorry for what I did, because in no way do I ever see me being a truly mean person, or someone with anger issues. It is absolutely unforgivable. So congratulations all new mods, I'm proud that you are going to assert yourselves as the face of Buildcraftia, and do good things to get the server back on its feet. Again, apologies for this incident,
So you're saying you're manipulating kids ( I use that term lightly, not all are kids but the target audience generally is children) on a Minecraft server to do your bidding. I suppose that's some lovely information for your "fans" to know.
Okay okay, well, here we go kiddos I can completely understand your frustration, and if I were you, I'd feel the exact same way. I defiantly blew my second chance. For sure. No question. Maybe it sounded like the right move at the time, to become staff again. But I wasn't, as evident by my resignation after two months. And now more than ever for many reason, I would like to help out to server yet again. But after what happened last time, I have no clue what people would think of me if I even made the vaguest run for staff again. A lot of people really didn't like that I resigned after only two months. Yea, I defiantly fucked that one up. I can tell when people are pissed. While I blew my second chance, that shouldn't be taken out on dusty or razer. They are two of the best staff members I know, and hands down deserved the job. Maybe people didn't like that they got a second chance, but, what's a world without second chances. They will do good as staff, they will stay around for a long long time. I haven't lost any respect for you, nor would it be hard for me too. You've been my longest reigning friend on the server. 2 1/2 years now (dear fucking God, wow, long time). But if your going to take out anger on this, dusty and razer don't deserve it. Cya around nappiepoo
I've always seen staff as a fun opportunity, rather than a job. It was only recently I had this change in mind sight, thus why I deleted my app. The thing is, most people believe they know what's best for the server. They think once they become staff, everything will change and the server will rise in popularity again, but for a while, they've been wrong. We're on the brink of a new era. Between Mac's demotion, recent Mod Noms, everything else, the server is taking a huge turn. Now wether that turn is right or wrong, dep nods not only on the staff's choices, but how the community reacts. Recently, we (the donators and members) have had a huge gain in power. We have so much power, we literally overthrew our founder, the guy who without him, none of us would be here. By now, we're going into the reprocessins of that. The staff is (to my view) loving their grip over the community. Some people are using this to their advantage (like you did), whereas some people are completely oblivious to it. What I'm trying to say is that the staff is going to act more stern and 'controlling' (lack of a better word) than ever, because they need to regain their grip. The community had a taste of power, and we want more. Sadly, we can't. TLDR: Staff losing power, Community gaining power = Bad
Nah bad word choice. I like to motivate people to do the right thing, not brainwash people. Don't get me wrong. Anyway this is my apology letter.
He apologised. There really doesn't have to be any further conflict discussion. Cheers Napkin I know I - and a few other staff - have been a little stressy regarding this whole incident so hopefully we can all move on
